Well once again, my dear friend Frank and my favorite blog http://karahaupt.typepad.com/my-blog/atom.xml have inspired me to quit being pessimistic about things (the coming week that I have affectionately named the week from hell). It all started when dear Frank said, “why so pessimistic about next week?”. Now I personally am not fond of the word “pessimistic”, so when I saw the word (because we were chatting over facebook) I thought, ok, putting a stop to that right this second! And I announced this to Frank and he was rather proud haha. Then seeing as we were both not running at full capcity, we decided to log off, due to the fact that were both zoning out and rather tired. But after I logged off for the evening I just had to check out my favourite blog (link posted above) and I am inspired by the fact that when she is feeling out of sorts she always tries to find peace in someway or another. So I am going to try and do the same because one, it’s a good thing to do, and it’ll help me to put my mind at ease.
"Which books to bring?" my most favourite question in the world. It’s like how in the book Inkheart by Cornelia Funk( I’ve never really finished it, but good book every time I pick it up) the main charachter Meggie would sit and carefully choose which books to bring on a journey somewhere. She would decide on the criteria of whether they fit the dynamics of that particular journey and how dark or happy they happend to be. The books she would choose would go into this satin lined wooden box that her father Moe made her with a lid and everything. I totally asked for one for Christmas one year, now I just use a little blue suitcase that one belonged to my mom. It’s one of those suitecases what you see in old movies that ladies would have all of their toiletries in, with a mirror in the lid. I now have a few photographs and a bookmark a friend of mine made me when I was 10 for my Harry Potter book. There’s just something about choosing that right book or in my case several books for a trip. This is because as Cornelia Funk said in Inkheart, a book holds memories of the place that you first read it. It’s true when you think about, because there is always a book on your shelf that you remember reading in a particular place or time and to this day everytime you open it you think of the place that you were when you first read it. My Harry Potter books hold a lot of memories like that. For example the third book "Prisoner of Azkaban" holds all sorts of memories of a friend that I had when I was 10. Her name was Olga and we used to spend practically every moment of the summer together, pretending we were playing quiddich in her backyard or watching the first harry potter movie, Titantic, and Erin Brockovitch while eating Oreo ice cream and liquorish and jumping on the trampoline that I had in the backyard. I found her on facebook one day and attempted to reconnect with her, to no avail. Oh well, we’re different people now, seeing as school, distance, and varying interests have since caused us to go our separate ways. I do miss her sometimes, but I’ll always have the memories of our summers locked away in that harry potter book.
Do you have a book like that?
Well, I’ve been inspired to be particularly honest in my latest blog post. I’ve been inspired to do this by Kamilah and my favorite blog http://karahaupt.typepad.com/my-blog/atom.xml. Especially since her latest post basically summed up my mood for the past little while. I’ve felt particularly anxious lately, I have no idea why, possibly because of all of the various school stresses that have come to be lately. And now that I’ve finished the immediate assignments that needed to be done, and one can wait, I can now take the time to sit and have time to myself. This is particularly important, because, just like the author of my favorite blog I have wanted to be a hermit and do what I should do, rather than what I NEEDED to do, which was devote some time to myself, have Jenn time. So that’s what I’ve decided to do tonight.
Yesterday, I had finally had it with the anxious feeling that I was having, so I prayed to God asking Him to help me fix it. Then I went to church, and totally rocked out with God as I do every sunday. For those who don’t know, my church is the one with the rock band and runs the Men’s Shelter. Then in the middle of the sermon, the answer to my anxious feeling finally came to me. So I went home, cleaned my room, and finished off my chem paper outline that was causing me some anxiety. Once my room was clean an amazing thing happend, I finally felt calmer, and more at ease. I then went to Dear John with my mom’s friend and listened to a podcast that I had been meaning to for awhile. It was wonderful. I did still have some anxiety over my university application, but I cleared that up with a quick 5 minute phone call to the university today.
On saturday, it was nice to have some family time by going out to the Moyie Pub, instead of going to Winter Formal. So I FINALLY had their world famous fish and chips (which is totally a must when driving out there). And I found a small, yet really cool, international project for my Rotaract club which will be totally awesome to do!
Today was also particulary good (except for the kink in my neck) because my chem partner/friend Ben and I finished off our chem lab over tim hortons coffee (which he supplied) and a William Joseph Cd. We also chatted for a while, which was good. I’ve determined that I need to get out more, I used to quite a lot, and now not so much. I need to fix that. Maybe that’s why I feel so anxious? I don’t know. Well tonight, I plan to bury my nose in a non school related book for the evening and stay there. I am also particularly looking forward to reading break. I’m planning a nice “Jenn time shopping trip” for myself in Saskatoon. Which is something that I also desperately need.
I wonder if any of my other friends are feeling the same way I am at the moment? Hmm..well if you are, we should get together and chat about it.
Yes, as the title implies, this post is dedicated to my dear friend Kamilah and all her awesomeness! When I read her blog post, for a break from studying psychology, I got to thinking about how I was like Miss Kamilah my last year in high school. I was involved in a LOT of things, from the plays (and everything associated with that), to Interact, to Student Council, to Student Improvement Committee. I remember that it was great when it all begin I thought it was wonderful, but I wasn’t exactly an ace at a little thing called “time management” and I’m still working on the art of that. But I must say that Miss Kamilah, I commend you for being able to be in all of those rather time consuming sciences, and not completely sink. I was in Biology, and I still passed by the skin of my teeth, but I didn’t try. Mr. Quick hated me for it, I hate me for it. So if you feel overwhelmed, it just means that you’re human, and you can’t do everything. So before you decide to take on more things, remember that you are indeed 17 and are infact entitled to have fun your grad year, and enjoy every minute of it. Leave the stress and sleepless nights for university (something Erik didn’t do in grade 11, and I highly doubt his grad year). So take my advice, if you find that something has to give, don’t let that thing be your school work. And have fun girlie! You are an awesome person, and I have learned so much from you, even though you might not know it. Also meeting you Miss Kamilah was one of the BEST things that could have happend to me and I love you for it!
So have fun, leave the stressful, sleepless, “i’m so tired, I’m only surviving on coffee” nights for university. Engineering is stressful as it is. You’ll need to conserve your all your energy so that you don’t suffer from a burn out.